To my past self by Malaysia

To my past self by Malaysia - July 2025 Scholarship Essay

If I could give one piece of advice to my past self I would say to her the pain that you are feeling now will all make sense eventually and you will overcome these obstacles. My reasoning for telling my past self that piece of advice is because a while ago when I was transitioning into a new part of my life everything started to go bad for me. One thing after another would happen, and I could never figure out why but somehow it was always me physically and mentally. I remember at one point I wanted to get lazy and not do nothing because of how bad I was mentally drained but I didn’t. I would continue to push everyday out in public and in school with a smile on my face but tears when all alone on my own time. Even though I had personal things going on I never let it interfere with my school life. At this point in time of my life I didn’t really talk to anybody so everything was bottled up and nobody knew but me I would question my worth of certain things. Music was my only thing I could rely on daily. I feel like if nobody understood me music did it always said the right things I needed to hear and it helped calm me down. Every time I thought I was doing better it was like then I wasn’t. As time went on I began to have a shift in my life on certain things. I started to change my mental and my perspective. I began praying every day not only over me but over everyone even animals and so much more. I began to think about how much worse other people may have it in life and started to make me more thankful. I started to began to eat healthier. Me praying everyday really changed my life around for me not only mentally but physically. Over my high school years I worked so hard to be on my A-game and stay on top of things. As I got into my junior year of high school I started to really realize how hard I actually had been working when my counselor told me I can graduate early at 16 because I only needed one more credit to graduate. Even though I was able to graduate early I stayed in school for my senior year. I didn’t want to rush my life. As my senior year began I took the class I needed and another class for a program I was in. I began to get medals from my college class that I took. I began to get many awards for my academics. I got to attend an event where I got an academic achievement award,A medal from LCCC and A straight A’s Award plaque. I got invited to a banquet at my school for the top 100 students for their academics out of 2 thousand something kids that went to the school.I got an email a while ago from the college I will be attending that I was a top student there based off of my HS records. At the end of my senior year there was an awards ceremony for seniors and I got 3 awards and 2/3 medals. One of the awards was from the tv production 2 year program I was in. Another Award was for making the staff and teachers jobs a lot easier. I got an opportunity to sign myself up for driving classes at my school which I did because I had one class at the time. I did an online course and then In person lessons and got my certification. It was a big opportunity that helped me to get my license as a student. Coming to the end of my senior year I only needed 20 credits to graduate and I graduated with 25/26 credits. At my high school you need 2 seals to graduate and I graduated with 3. I also graduated with a 3.7/3.8 GPA. Now I am in the process of going to college as well. In conclusion I would tell myself that piece of advice because at one point in time I didn’t know what the future would hold for me and I am so grateful that through all the obstacles everything has worked out for me.