It's okay to put yourself first. by Hannah

It's okay to put yourself first. by Hannah - July 2025 Scholarship Essay

Growing up, I often felt like I had to stay quiet just to keep the peace. I thought that putting others before me—no matter how it made me feel—was the “right” thing to do. I was the type of person who bottled up emotions, avoided conflict, and tried to make everyone else happy, even if it meant I was hurting. I didn’t realize how much of myself I was losing just by trying to protect everyone else’s feelings.

If I could go back, I’d look that younger version of me in the eyes and tell her: you matter, too. Your voice, your feelings, and your mental health are just as important as anyone else’s. You don’t have to shrink yourself to make other people comfortable. You’re allowed to say no. You’re allowed to walk away from things or people that don’t make you feel safe or loved. That’s not selfish—that’s strength.

Putting myself first wasn’t easy at first. I had to unlearn habits and let go of guilt that was never mine to carry. But now, I’ve found so much peace in choosing what’s best for me. I’ve grown stronger mentally, emotionally, and even physically through sports, academics, and just learning who I am. And the more I started prioritizing myself, the more I realized I was becoming someone I could be proud of.

If I had known this earlier, I think a lot of things would’ve been different. But even though it took time, I’m thankful for the lessons. Because now, I move forward with confidence, with boundaries, and with the belief that I deserve the same love and care I give to others. And that’s something my past self definitely needed to hear.